“Some friends don’t understand this. They don’t understand how desperate I am to have someone say, I love you and I support you just the way you are because you’re wonderful just the way you are. They don’t understand that I can’t remember anyone ever saying that to me. I am so demanding and difficult for my friends because I want to crumble and fall apart before them so that they will love me even though I am no fun, lying in bed, crying all the time, not moving. Depression is all about If you loved me you would.”—- Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel
“Doctors did not swear not to err, but have sworn to err as little as possible. And the latin maxim ” Human Erare Est” has lost none of its truth. We have the perfect intentions, but we are imperfect people.”—
“If my heart could explode into a billion tiny pieces
and scatter themselves all over the world.
If I could live on sunlight and the city sounds
and fall asleep in those thousands of lighted windows.
I wonder if this world will ever make sense to me,
if I will ever truly understand anything
and if there’s really anything to understand at all.”—~ Forever the Stars
A:"..eventually, when I'm all patched up again..." "Anyway, I don't think I need to even explain this."
C:"I was actually thinking about you. I never got to write you or ask how you were."
"...And you were the first person..."
"It is written in my diary."
A:"...but to witness that twice in a year is a little bit too much for my soul."
C:"Your soul is hurting, But remember failure is a single event, failure is not a person. Failure is not a soul. Failure is merely a single event in time. Eventually you will succeed."
C:"I probably wanted to say something as stellar as your reply to me when I greeted you a happy birthday :"
"Thank you, love" (A bit of heaven from you) :)
A:"It's probably the other away around." "Write me anytime. Write me whenever. Write me whatever. I will listen to your soul." "..because what I need right now is people believing in me. Knowing that they are there cheering me every single day."
"What am I still missing? "
"....Whatever you feel like doing even if I become silent." "Even if I continue to run and hide." "Even if you think I am nowhere to be found..because I will know and that will be my totem."
C:"You know the reason why I like you because at a certain wavelength, we connect completely."
"..and I believe in you. And if only you would discover how to channel your intelligence in this particular aspect of your life, oh! you would be stellar!"
"So, I am going to write you often. I will not expect my letters to be answered. No expectation."
"I like looking at your pictures you know. I don't download/fantasize over your pictures. I just like looking at them even if I have seen them a million times. Because you do look like a piece of art. Walang halong bola."
"I'm going to sleep. I am going to write you again. I'm going to make you my blog."
"I am going to drop a wish for you there." "I do not know yet what is your most immediate need, but I know it will come to me. Maybe out of the blue or maybe in my dreams tonight."
”..And so, begins forth my journey. As mind-blowing as it should be. No fanfare. No hype. Just the real deal. It’s time to soar and it’s important to not lose the passion — not lose the drama — the magnificence of it all, as cloudy and rainy everyday seem to be. Trust that you will get there. Your difficult journey is about to end or start depending on how you look at it.
This is the culmination of not just every hardships and failures you’ve had. This will also be the pinnacle of the accomplishments you have ever had in your life. So, let’s start. This is your time to soar. This is your worth.
Let’s start moving forward. There’s no turning back.”